feeling

2011-01-21T03:27:00.000-08:00

my body is get weak..... haizzzz nw day life is sux feel like giving up my life i feel like closing my eye have a very long rest.....

2010-10-29T10:48:00.000-07:00

17/10/2010 midnight i was playing audi and i use audi to find a real life gf but i think no gal will wan to be wif mi de la i so old so ugly so sudden gal come in the game room ask hi u look for RL gf how old de i ans u hw old she ans 18+ so we exchange hp no but is i give her my number she say she will msg mi but i wait and wait she nv sent mi so i fb msg her ask her she say soon but in the end nv msg mi but i nv give out i very sure she will msg mi few days later she sent mi i very happy we start to sms till 29/10/2010 we together she name is bella chua i hope she can bring mi out of my emo world baby from now on u r my hope i will do my best u make u happy everydays i love u .......

2010-04-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

haiz............... so sad so emo dunno why always gt tis feeling maybe is use to it le ba i no working stay at hm v sian nth to do everyday emo at hm i gt alot of thing to say but i dunno why i cant say out feel like find someone to talk but i dun think i can find coz only i can help myself but i jus dunno hw maybe is i still cant step out my emo world to see wt happen out side many thing will happen everyday like me nth will change coz of my skin i dun dare to face myself even if i like someone i wont say out haiz.............

2010-03-20T09:51:00.000-07:00

haiz.... so sian de lo boss give mi tis 5 days off is wan to kick mi out lo i work for them 2 year+ in the end i get like tat de thing haiz....... so sian de lo is ok nvm i ren 1st when time come u all will noe wat happen fuck de lo i soon will be a free man le hahha

2010-03-17T09:54:00.000-07:00

haiz.......... so sian nth to do boss give mi clean my off and leave for 5 days but i really dunno where to go coz i always go out alone so i feel so0 bor and sian haiz..... tis feel day dunno why cant slp keep think alot ex gf de past thing i tell myself wat to do why keep on thinking of them maybe is i too lonely or i in love in someone but in my heart no one inside and i dun luv anything gal nw but i dun why i like to keep write tat kind of love comment haiz..... maybe i need to lock myself coz i onli wan to stay at my own world haiz........... i think i have change myself in the way i really dunno wat i doing but is gd coz i dun need to think too much nw i m a person who onli luv myself even i like or love someone i will nv say out de coz i noe cant be trust in luv so is ok jus keep in my heart can le

2010-03-14T22:30:00.001-07:00

Haiz....... So sian from tml till sat clean leave to other ppl will think v song to mi no is boss say my sale nt gd think I nv work so ask me to clean leave and sent another guy to come Here see the sale gd ma but to Mi in the end his sale gd I oso can't do anything maybe u gt luck lo haiz....... Dunno why sometime will think the past wat I have done haiz....... Nw I dunno wat I wan haiz..... Ytd I dream I gt gf but can't see her face and she say r u still waiting for Mi and tell Mi she luv Mi den she walk away WTF maybe I think too much le ba I get use to it alone but sometime feel like talk to someone will lend Mi his or she ear but I find no one so I always keep in myself nw feel lonely but i nv tel anyone I ask step one nth happen I can save ppl but no one can save Mi cox I lose to myself

2010-03-13T23:18:00.001-08:00

Long time nv blog le cox working v busy sometime feel like bloging but v tired to on com nw use I phone can blog anytime I wan nw day still the same nth even change to Mi in work gt alot thing to do work so hard in the end boss say I nv work hai...

In my life time alot of thing happen 9 years ago I met a gal I tot she will be my last gal in my life but something happen she leave Mi and she wif my most trust de bro in one night I lose one best bro and my luv one and happen b4 two week I go Ns tat time 20 year old in my Ns time I keep thinking why tis will happen to Mi but the time past I have put down on her tot will nv see her anyone but I m wrong when I noe she going to marry I feel so hurt and we still gt meet up and tat time I still luv her no matter wat she say wat she wan Mi to do I will do for her even I noe she is using Mi till 2009 I wake up le dun wan to be a fool so we break friendship and I promise myself I will trust anyone till nw I still the same walk alone live in my own world and tis hurt will forever keep in my heart to let Mi remember dun trust anyone

In new year I hope my skin will recoveri and can do wat I wan dun need to fan tis fan tat ok stop need to go work le

2009-12-30T10:51:00.000-08:00

.................. hai..... today is the last day of 2009 i still the same nth change i really dunno wat i done wrong why god must take away my gd skin let mi turn in to a ugly and no ppl dare to go near mi sad tis thing keep in my heart very long le i coz of my ugly skin lost alot of thing i no dare to find a gf no dare to noe gals when i walk outside ppl see mi will say why tis guy the skin like tat de so ugly hai.... 2 year le i use to it le but every night i lock myself in my room and cry why tis happen to mi hai... everything is fate infont al my friend and my family i act like nth happen coz i dun wan to let them worry so i keep all my sadess in my heart till now den i say out i still waiting for gal can acc mi aac my skin but i think is no one coz got which gal wan to be wif a ugly skin guy no one so i need to face the true no gal will luv mi no gal will wan mi hai....dun say le ....

2009-02-07T07:53:00.000-08:00

hmmmm......... very long time nv do bloging last year something happen to mi in luv i dun wan to talk much abt tat i jus let her go and i think i will nv belive wat is promise and on the last year 26/12/08 i and a gal name xiao li we start our story but we have no much time for each other coz working i always wait for her to off work to sent her hm everytime is i sms and cal her she nv cal mi at all but i think she is busy so i nv say anything but when tis year going to CNY she need to go back to her hometown she nv sms mi or cal mi she jus leave till now so everyone see my frienster think i gt gf is xin fu de tat all fate de i jus dun wan to let ppl noe so i keep in my heart i very emo nw till i meet a gal she is a cute and kind gal she always push mi up and i fall in luv wif her but i dun dare to tell her i like her coz i scare she wont talk to mi if she noe i like her i jus stand a side to watch her if can mke her stay happy always i dun mind do anything for her i really dun mind today i feel very emo dunno wat i think i feel feel like close my eye rest but when close my eye all the unhappy thing will come out from my mind hai.............. dunno wat to do ok la stop here i will update my blog when i free

2008-11-09T12:50:00.000-08:00

till now i still the same alone and emo maybe my fate is like tat hai... sian nth to do dunno why i gt a very sad feeling but i dunno wat happen oso is nt i cant put down the past nw i m jus a guy liveing in my own world i gt alot of xin shi but i dun feel like say out coz i noe no one will noe my feeling is ok i will be fine haha sometime i really dunno wat m i doing dunno wat to write so i very stop here.................

2008-09-11T08:47:00.000-07:00

hai.................i v v v v long nv blog long time nv say my xin shi out le time past so fast but i still cant give up to care her i try nt to think nt to care but in the end i still will care i v hope i can acc other gal to give them xin fu but nw is too late le coz i myself nt a gd guy all ppl saw mi tot i ok but is i onli act i very happy i nv happy b4 always when i try to put luv in to the gal they will leave mi hai............ i oso think emo is the onli way to let mi forget the past forget the hurt but when i emo i more hurt more sad i cant find a person to talk to i m lost dunno where i m wat i m do i feel like crying i cant stand the lonely really v lonely wat i say no one will understand jus will think i m weak i m a person need someone to put mi up coz u all nv feel b4 in one day lost everything and take nth happen who will noe no one......

2008-05-20T10:20:00.000-07:00

today is my very sad day i like a gal very long le she name is lei lei i take very long time to tell myself to woo her but today i fail she jus wan to be my friend and she have bf i very sad dunno why my heart like something gone and very pain and no mood to work cant wif her as long she happy i ok de ok de hai......... nth to say jus wan to find someone to say out my feeling but there is no one be there for mi is ok i will be fine de...............

2008-05-19T11:35:00.000-07:00

hai..... long time nv blog le nw day i jus keep my xin shi in my heart nw i cant take le must write out to blog hai... luv ar why i jus cant forget to past why i always cant get out of the past why why why nw i noe no matter wat i do nth will change i very xin ku very heart pain why my mind always cant forget tat when her i dun luv u anymore very sad is i still walk out from the past and my friend say try to jio other gal u like try and i think very long so tml i will the jio tat gal see hw hai.... i think sure fail de la coz i so ugly hai.... very sad feel like cry feel like hug someone and have a big big cry jus duno why my life gt alot of thing happen dunno hw to say i juz gt pain but cant say out must act nth to pass day by day if i can i really hope can find a gal to care to luv i very wish...........................

2008-01-13T07:24:00.000-08:00

hai... long time nv blog le nw is 2008 liao i still the same walk alone in tis year something happen to mi is i still in luv wif her and i cant put down on her in my thinking as long as she happy jiu hao but one someone tell mi why i need to do tat and my friend tell mi to wake up she say when she and him together very happy they got think abt u xie weiqiang is alone and sad ma i think le oso think is right but i jus take is nth but i always think i help them is right or wrong i very sad when she tell mi she onli need my care and luv and my heart hurt very pain and from tat day till nw my heart very pain and sad feel like crying every night when i think wat she say tat night my heart feel very cold and very pain hai..... why tis will happen to mi i jus wan someone to care mi and luv mi why jus a xiao xiao de yao qiu oso cant get i think is i too weak le always lose in luv hahaha.... when ppl need help need care they will cal mi when i need help need care who help mi no one jus myself kurosaki kayashi hai........... i hope very very hope i can sleep and nv wake up...............

2007-11-29T07:46:00.000-08:00

hmmmm....... long time nv blog le hmmmmm........ zhong yi ORD le but still the same still alone hai......nw day v sian oso dunno wan to do wat maybe i too lonely le ba always when the night come my feeling will tell mi i m lonely hai......... if i czn find a gal who care and luv mi i will all out for her even my life hai.... i still waiting

2007-09-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

hmmm............... hai.............. always when the night come i will feel lonely and sad and always will think the past the sad case in my whole life till nw my heart still have the pain hai...... time pass v fast everything change onli myself nv change still the same ppl always think i m a person like to lock myself in my own world i m a person who always think the same way but i can say is my feeling no one will understand everytime i feel like crying but if i cry i m a loser if i dun cry everyday will feel v pain in heart....... i jus a wish the wish is....................

2007-09-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

hai......... i think so many day so many night still thinking wat m i going to do hai...... gt one gal ask mi to change myself and i promise her to change but if i change le she will be wif mi? who noe but i trying to change hope can myself out from the dark my feeling still the same nv change coz i nv forgive them they hurt my heart so deep and i hate them they let mi become a person 4ever gt the pain in my heart

2007-09-17T05:13:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm.... long time bloging my feeling hai..... now day my feeling is bad v bad when i down always i m alone onli i the one no ppl noe my feeling hai........ my heart is bleeding everyday always must act a happy face is nth happen hai....... i scare when i fall in luv wif a gal and i tell her my feeling but i noe in the end will nv happen de coz is fate i will always alone...................

2007-08-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

hai................ today dunno why whole day feel v sad dunno wat happpen to mi i think A lot of thing dunno why i keep on thinking of her may i fall in luv in her but think myself so ugly so useless hai...... dun dare to tell her i noe sure get hurt de so i dun think i got the ji hui so forget it hai.......... kayashi nv think of love will hurt u de .........

2007-08-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

hmmm........ i m thinking everyday wat is love wat is feeling and why when get hurt will feel the pain is i think too much or i too lonely le who noe hai.......... i 22 le but still cant step out from love maybe i still cant take it maybe all my friends will feel i m still kids always think tat way but i really dun feel my thinking is wrong coz my feeling onil i can feel the pain when i think the past...... now day onli i alone in my heart feel v lonely but i nv tell anyone and i everyday act a face tat ppl think i m a v happy go luckly person but i m nt i jus a person who lock myself in my lonely world every night i dunno why i will cry but when i cry i feel v relax and i dun wish or hope anything coz will nv come true maybe wish and hope is for someone who can face they myself stand up when they fall but i cant face myself fall down will nv stand up i noe i gt alot of friends who care abt mi but thx i m a useless person my friend Shu Ting say is right she say: why u always think is gals playing ur feeling not is u cant take it give gals play ur feeling.
when i hear tis i v angry but i noe is true so i jus walk away but i thinking.........................

2007-07-30T08:14:00.000-07:00

today dunno why my heart feel abit pain today LTT online i ask her how r u she say find when she ask mi hw r u i jus .............. i dun wan to tell her i v sad but when i noe she gt bf dunno why my heart like bleeding hai........ is ok i still noe who i m wat i must to myself is to lock myself in my lonely world i will nv step out of my world coz tis world is full of lie so sad no one will noe the feeling of my............

2007-07-29T05:10:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm........ long time nv blog le hai...... i still the same alone not i always wan to have a gf my alone mean i always walk alone hai........ is ok no one will understand hw a person feeling maybe is i tio hurt too much le so i will think like tat but i dunno who i m nw maybe i change le i oso dunno i really hope i can happy all my friends happy but nw i cant coz i oso cant cure my hurt myself so i choose to lock myself up coz i dun wan to get hurt anymore and LOVE is my 4ever hurt everyday i do the same thing everynight i feel sad v sad but i nv let anyone noe coz no one will noe hw to cure mi de so i jus keep the my sad thing in my alone heart

if i day i gone hope all my friends will forget mi..............................

2007-06-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmmm....... long time nv blog le i still the same the one lock in a lonely world tis 2days ago LTT pm mi in msn ask mi how i dun wan to let her noe i still the same but i jus act like i ok ok coz she tell mi she worry abt mi and i dun wan her to worry so i act like v happy and jus nw i pm her ask her wat to talk ma she say ok i cal her and dunno why we nth to say v an jing but i gt alot of thing wan to tell her but i dun dare to say so i jus an jing oso lo hai....... i nw dunno why feel v sad v lonely nw day when i sad i nv find ppl to talk coz i noe all of u busy and my pain will nv recover de so i jus keep all inside my heart hai.............

2007-05-20T04:13:00.000-07:00

hmmmm........ i think i have change le i oso who i m now sometime gd to ppl sometime do bad thing to hurt ppl tis few days i think and think tis world is nth fair and i m the one who always lost in luv use by ppl i dunno why nw days when at night i will feel lonely like last time but last gt ppl talk to mi nw dun have and i oso dun feel like talk and oso dun wan anyone noe wat happen to mi when i think back all my past all my ex break wif mi de more them i break like
(1st) wen yi go timer i break wif her
(2nd) siew hui nv luv mi b4 so she break wif mi
(3nd) yi tao she luv mi but i jus hurt her so i break wif her
(4th) hui zhen tell mi she still luv her ex so she break wif mi
(5th) joo ben i dun like the way she talk to mi so i break wif her
(6th) ming hui she luv mi i oso but she dad dun like mi so i break wif her
(7th) jia li she is the one wif mi 3year 4month in the end she break wif mi coz she fall in luv wif mi best bro yi fong
(8th) pei wen she ask jia li to give up on mi so she can be wif mi in the end i noe tis thing i break wif her and i hate ppl lie
(9th) is tang tang tis 3month she nv luv mi b4 and she still luv she ex bf so she break wif mi and she is 2nd wif mi long de gf but she oso break our promise leave mi hai........
i really cant stand the pain u all give wat i done why must hurt mi if nv luv mi b4 why must make mi happy wif mi why dun tell mi the true why why why so i will change myself a person tat no one will noe wat i think wat i feeling

2007-05-18T05:20:00.000-07:00

today feeling still v down hai........ dunno wat is my life nw wat is my taget 4nd days we break le when i think abt her i dunno why will feel v angry and sad maybe is she say she nv luv me b4 tis words hurt my heart and ytd i pm her at msn she say she wait for her ex bf so i can sure she nv luv mi b4 she jus use mi as a backup i v hate why is i always get hurt hai......... i always a losed in luv hai...... i feel v lonely v sad why aliways i m the one always alone who noe my feeling i jus a guy need someone care and luv wat i do wrong hai........... jus feeling v sad

2007-05-16T00:54:00.000-07:00

ytd i gt a v sad new is my gf tang tang leave mi and ytd i on duty wat the fuck and i dunno wat i do wrong i ask her why she jus say she nv luv mi b4 and tis 3month 13days wif mi v hard to her she say everydays she must force herself to luv mi wa..... when i hear tat i v sad and i think she jus play my feeling promise mi will wait for mi but ytd jus say nv luv mi b4 wat the fuck if cant do it dun promise mi why must lie to mi and play mi CCB i v v v v v v v v hot and v v v v v v sad feel like killing ppl and i today take leave jus wan to make myself cool down but how and i think i will lock myself in a lonely world i wont be kind anymore nv coz i be kind always get hurt so i will go put the 3nd ear hole and disown all my god mei mei if u all hate mi i oso nth to say i from nw on will nv be happy i will show all of u my evil side NO MORE KIND!!!!!!!!!! TIS WORLD IS FULL OF LIE!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA..... I M MAD NW HOPE ALL MY FRIEND DUN COME NEAR MI OR I WILL HURT U ALL OR KILL........ hai...... jus feel like end my life wif nth... if tis world lost mi one person nth will go wrong all will be more ok then nw all is my wrong why born mi in tis world make ppl sad make angry make cry make worry ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... tat all i wan to say if anyone see tis post hope u will understand my feeling and sryyyyyyyy .........

KuRoSaKi KaYAShI LoSt MySelF

2007-05-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

today no in a gd mood dunno why i feel v sad and angry ahhhhh.......... now feel like killing ppl now who talk to mi i sure will shout back i v v v v v v v v v v v angry and v v v v v v v v v sad dunno how to cool down myself why when i need someone care someone noe my feeling but there no one there for mi ahhhhhhh...... i think i need to lock myself in a dark world till i feel ok so anyone cal mi or sms mi i wont reply i jus wan to be alone jus wan to rest my heart v pain v v v v pain i m hurt but i will recover soon .................

2007-04-27T10:50:00.000-07:00

today i feel v sad coz today my dar ask mi some Q to test mi 5Q i onli get 2 right and i noe she feel abit sad she nv tell mi i feel i still nt noe her well but i will try my best to noe her more nw i onli can say is sry v sry hope u dun angry or sad sry hunny useless but i zhen de will try to noe u more de.........

2007-04-21T05:01:00.000-07:00

hai.... today v sian nth to do hmmmm..... dunno hw my lao po doing gt eat ma gt miss hunny ma hope everything will be fine hai.... dunno wan to say wat jus stop here ba

2007-04-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

today my dar go camp for 2days hai......... miss her so much.......... so sian nth to do dunno my dar gt miss mi ma and her gt eat ma hai....... hope nth happen to her tis 2days........

2007-04-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

hmm....... today i zhen de v happy coz my dar tell mi i m her xin fu and she say i love u 4ever wa.......... so sweet maybe today cant slp le haha dar u oso mi xin fu i love u tooo haha and my mei cal mi and talk to mi haha tat all

2007-04-10T08:16:00.000-07:00

today mood okok but my dar mood is bad coz her mum say she nv study hard but i noe she study v hard but no one noe and make her mood feeling v sad and i as her bf cant by she side to take care an wei her and we nw v an jing nv talk and i nw do my bloging v sad see her like tat and i cant do anythingn for her nt one time le always she sad she nt happy i always onli can hear she sad hear she cry but i onli can hide one side cry sometime i feel myself is a useless person hai....... sry dar i cant be there when u need mi sry v sry

2007-04-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

ahhhh........ long time nv bloging le today gt time and nth to do so write something ba hmmmm...... nw day i feel v happy and i can feel my lao po v care and luv mi i really v happy hope we can last v long till time of our life in my life i tot i will alone and lonely always but when the day i met her my thinking all have change she the one who let my feel tat tis world still gt luv i dun feel lonely anymore and i nw live in a v happy world tat she give mi v thx her to be wif mi and i will promise i will try my v best to give u xin fu..........................

2007-03-23T08:50:00.000-07:00

haha today still the v happy dunno wat to mi i cant stop myself and dunno why so happy haha and a v gd new to mi my dar dar pei mi play on9 game maple story haha..... and she say to download v long till nw onli 19% haha and i tell her is ok dar hunny pei u wait ma but if u feel wan to slp must tell hunny ok hmmmmm......... i v happy haha hope we everyday can v happy together till the end of the time and i will marry u in maple........

WILL U MARRY MI ???

2007-03-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

today my dar tell mi tis few days why she not in the gd mood and i v happy she tell mi nw i feel ok le but i reali hope can hear say i love u to mi coz u nv say tis b4 to mi but i will wait till the day u tell mi no matter how long i will wait as long as u happy u feel xin fu can le and i will do my v best to let u happy to let u feel my luv my feeling no matter hw hurt i will stand the pain to luv u to make u happy tis all word is true in my heart wif nv lie .........

2007-03-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

tis few days dunno wat happen to my dar she tis few days nt in the gd mood when i talk to her she shout at mi and i noe she nt a gd mood so i nv say anything but i reali dunno hw to an wei her dunno hw to talk to her to make her happy abit i zhen de zhen de zhen de dunno hw to do to make her happy dunno hw to let her dun feel lonely everytime when i sad i wan to tell her but i scare will make her angry so i keep all my xin shi in my heart try to make her happy but she always nt in the gd mood and i v unlucky everytime i wan to tell her something always nt in the gd time hai........ hope she wont see my blog coz i dun wan to let her noe i m sad nw i sad nvm as long she happy can le i dun mind give up everyting i have to make u happy .........coz i luv u ....

2007-03-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

hai.... today dunno why my dar not in a gd mood so i say i try to make she happy and i say i noe my joke cant make u happy but can u give mi a ji hui to try she say NO o............. dunno why my heart gt a kind of pain and cold feeling hai..... m i zhen de nt a gd bf? or is i not noe her well hmmm.... if is i not noe her well i will try to understand her more try to give in more ba hope she will happy my wish is wan to see her happy everyday can liao to mi is ok de haha..... tat all.....

2007-03-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

hai........ dunno why i feel abit sad when i noe my dar sick le and i dunno she gt on9 today hai........ and i go her imvu hm page leave msg and i find out my dar delete my all msg when i noe my msg have be delete my heart feel v cold ans keep on think why why hai...... today no mood to bloging stop here..........

2007-03-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.... today v happy my lovely come back le haha.... and funny thing happen i v early on9 and i go bath b4 i go bath i pm my dar tell i go bath an i bath come out my mummy ask mi to go buy thing then i pm my dar tat i go help my mummy buy thing but she nv get the msg and she tot i use 1hrs + to bath and ask mi go die when i come back she v v v v v v mad and angry then i tell her the true and she noe le and she nv angry liao so must thx the 2pit MSN

2007-03-17T07:49:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.... today i sick le haha fever and flu but okok la still can bloging haha today is the 4th days hmmm... my dar will be back tml wa....... i v miss u dar when u can back i will ask u wat u doing tis few days haha.... i nt feeilng well so stop here ba........

2007-03-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

hai.............. today my mood abit down maybe is missing her ba i long time dun have tis feeling le the feeling tat missing and worry abt someone u luv dun why when i think abt she my heart like gt something missing in my heart maybe i too miss her le ba and dunno hw is her doing ok ma or...... hope nth happen to her i every night will levae her a msg at IMVU hope she will see hai....... dar where r u hunny hao xiang ni ar feel like huging u and kiss u on ur lips and tell u i luv u and miss u so much hai........

LAO PO WO HAO XIANG NI AR......................

2007-03-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

ar........... long time nv bloging le today i feel v lonely coz my dar dar go her friend hm for 5days hope she enjoy and have fun hai....... but mi v lonely without her talk to mi dar i v miss u and i today sick haha but i ok le need more rest but hw abt u gt take care urself ma gt eat ma and gt miss hunny ma hope 5days faster past hai...........................

2007-02-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

today very sad dunno wat happen why my dar nv on9 i wait for her 2hrs something still nv no9 hai......... i feel very sad dunno wat happen to her i reali very worry abt her hai...... hope can see her no0 tml

2007-02-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

today feeling okok but abit sad la coz jus nw i ask my dar one Q is i m the onli on in her heart she say nt yet then i ask hw many % she say 30 to 40 when i noe the ans i a bit hurt and sad but thx my dar u tell mi the true nv lie to mi is ok i noe we onli jus together 4 days is ok i will wait and i try my v best to let u noe how much i love u dar if u see tis post pls dun feel sry coz u nv wrong so u dun feel so sry to mi ok u still ji de i tell u ( zi yai siao yi siao mei se mo si qing guo bu liao)
hmmmmmm........ i really v hope we can last...........

2007-02-04T07:47:00.000-08:00

today okok i on duty v sad cant pei my dar dar and i very miss her and hope can hear she shen ying hmmmmm nw my day v happy coz i have her wif mi i zhen de very happy hope we can last long thx god give mi tis cute and funny gal i will use my zhen xin to make her happy no matter wat even use up all my time and life coz i love u ..........

2007-02-03T08:52:00.000-08:00

today v happy i gt a gf name tang tang she v cute and funny i and her met in IMVU and we be together nw i dun feel lonely de coz i gt her to be wif i love her i zhen de love her hope we can last v long and happy everyday.........

2007-01-30T04:27:00.000-08:00

today feeling okok la everything is find but i keep on thinking hw to make ppl happy haha and think qing ren jie meet who out who will free to pei wo i think no one ba maybe i go out alone haha hmmmm......... nth to do dunno hw to pass my time hai..............

2007-01-29T06:26:00.000-08:00

ar..... long time nv say my feeling le hai.... i noe i have myself stand up but my feeling something still gt the pain tis is the onli thing i cant change mi feeling time past v fast now day thing will change even love and feeling nw then i noe wat is my pain wat happen to mi feeling i think i still gt my will tat i haven do but i noe my will is v hard to make it happen i understand everything cant be force when is ur's sure will be ur's if the thing nt ur's when u do will nv be ur's even u try to change thing oso no use coz u must face the true like i nv wan to face to true i keep on run away but one day i wake up le i dun wan to run anymore i wan to face the thing coz i noe when i close myself in my lonely i noe gt alot of my friends care for mi my nu er and blur a i noe they dun wan mi to be like tat thx u all i noe wat to do le and i will try my best to make my self happy thx u

2007-01-25T04:50:00.000-08:00

ar.......... long time nv bloging le tis few day i have think alot of thing abt love la myself la but i now try to be happy but night still gt the feeling of lonely but is ok nth le ba nw day nth the say haha

2007-01-11T04:28:00.000-08:00

today raining day dunno why tis few day i feel like my heart and mind have change nw i see thing like will think abt the past and something like i do b4 and always think wat happen to mi all my friends say i change le say i like a no feeling person they ask mi wat happen why u become like tat why must close urself in a lonely world and i tell her is ok dun worry i will be fine de but she noe i sure wont be fine de and she tell mi one day sure u will meet a gal who care for u and luv u and i ans her hope ba hai......... sian nth to do no ppl to talk...................

2007-01-09T06:25:00.000-08:00

today feel ok but tried tis few day playing maple to past time i today se my chat room i saw blur a... write something tat i dun like but i noe mei u care for mi thx but why i will write all my feeling nw is bcoz i dun wan to keep in my heart anymore so i write wat i feel but is true i reali very sian and lonely ar........... blur a..... tell mi one day sure gt one gal will open my cold heart lonely world i oso very hope but i dun think i can give anyone xin fu anyway thx mei and dun angry wif mi i noe wat i m doing hope i hope everyone will xin fu ........

2007-01-06T18:48:00.000-08:00

tis few day playing so nv bloging nw day so sian nth to do weekend more sian dunno wat to do wan to go out oso dunno wan to go where time past very fast all thing have change but onli mi nv change still the same a no feeling mi and a sad mi and nw day i gt xin shi i wont tell anyone i write in the blog here is the place i onli can say wat i wan to say............

2007-01-03T04:26:00.000-08:00

haha...... in tis world no one will noe hw i feel de lo all of u onli noe hw to say dun be sad la dun think too much la haha...i oso noe hw to say hmmmmmmm.... when someone was down cal mi or sms mi i will make them happy try to make them dun sad BUT when i m down anyone noe ma hahaha........... so no one noe de lo today i have very very very bad mood why....................... i very hate myself why i must be the one who so unlucky hurt by love hurt by best bro and cant have a happy 21 birthday i hate i hate i hate all tis thing i will nv forget in my whole life

life is sux

2007-01-02T06:39:00.000-08:00

hai.... today still the same nth happen but whole day very sian nth to do i go play maple past time but still cant cover the lonely in my heart today is new year 2nd day hope tis year can be happy but i think will nv happen de lo so i noe wat to do dun think too much coz no one will love mi coz i m ugly..............

2006-12-31T05:49:00.000-08:00

tis few day nth to say so nv bloging today nw my feeling very sad and low new year is coming hai...... nth to do very boring my life is sux always very lonely at night hai....... in my heart still feel something is gone dunno is wat i think is love hai....... half year le i an lian a gal half year le still nw dun dare to tell her and she nw very xin fu le is ok if can see her happy i will try to be happy but i think i still got tat feeling pain when i m lonely.....................

2006-12-28T06:45:00.000-08:00

today raining day still the same my feeling still very low still feeling lonely i really wan to tell u all if i one day forget u all will u all angry mi or hate mi too tired....... dun feeling like talk ..... stop here

2006-12-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

hai..... ytd is my bro bday i whole day feeling very sad coz his bday better then my wan when i think abt my bday i feel very sad and angry and wa he gt alot li wu but on my bday onli 2 wa i really very sad ppl bday can be so happy can have alot of fun but my bday no ppl come wa....... i zhen de bu fu why i always the loser i zhen de hate........... i think is my fate i will nv have a happy day hai............ like today is christmas i think all ppl go out have fun but i nv go out coz no ppl jio and dunno where to go i zhen de like gt friend like no friend in my life zhen de onli i walking alone ma hahaha....... now i m crying who will noe onli the dark night noe i m crying if one day i gone le i think no one will noe i have gone....................

2006-12-23T05:36:00.000-08:00

hai....... ytd too tried le so nv bolging hai........ weekend is my very boring day very sian today my friend cal mi talk talk she ask mi hw r mi le i jus say okok lo and she ask ask mi abt love and ask mi hw is my heart still pain ma i tell her yes still pain i noe i and her have 1 year plus le but is ok la she hope she xin fu lo and i tell my friend when tat she go my kind oso gone i nw is a no feeling person coz i have be hurt by love so i think i dun wan to be kind to anyone unless i can meet a gal who can open mi heart and i oso say dun think tat i cant put down the past i have put down le i nw walk alone i think i will forever alone nv change......................... so dun worry i will be find...............

2006-12-21T04:28:00.000-08:00

today still the same nth have change hai........ and today nth to do oso so sian very boring and tis few day is a raining day so dun feel like going out onli can stay at hm hai..... life is sux

2006-12-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

ahhhh...... so tired ZZZZzzzzzz.......... feel very sleeply feel like closeing my eye and let myself relax so far i have be alone 1 year le i think i can walk alone and let the time one day one day pass if i can close my eye and nv open i will be more happy ahhhhh........

2006-12-17T06:35:00.000-08:00

hai...... today is a very boring and lonely day and rain whole day sian ar hai.... why my life so boring de ahhhhhh....... wat happen to mi where is my way m i lost my way i always think why i will become like tat why must i become like tat but always no ans like nw i always sad at night in font all my friends i act very happy and nth happen but i my heart i nt happy at all i will nv be happy coz tis my fate ..........

2006-12-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

hai....... today very boring nth to do hai....... so sian no ppl to talk to ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i going to mad le i so lonely hai............. till when i can dun feel lonely i have nth to say le.....

2006-12-15T06:11:00.000-08:00

hai......... sian ar............ nth to do life so boring today my feeling feel very sick coz i zhen de nth to do hai......... i love a gal very long time le but till nw i oso dunno wan to tell her ma i scare her dun talk to mi hai......... in my heart is still gt pain but i always wan to try to walk out from the dark but dunno why still cant move hai............... i think i m always alone hai...............

2006-12-14T07:00:00.000-08:00

today mood ok ok lo nth much to say still the same feel lonely hai....... when the night come my feeling will feel lonely and cold dunno why but i m ok nw past few day dunno wat happen to mi hai...... dunno ar.......... life is so boring without someone to walk wif u together nw day i all alone no other 2007 coming hai.... is a new year dunno wat is my taget hai...............
A......................L........................O.........................N...................................E

2006-12-13T07:55:00.000-08:00

i today very very sad i zhen de cant take the pain le my heart feel very very pain i feel like crying my mind keep on showing mi tat thing i really very sad i feel like i m a loser my whole body is go down my feeling is very very low maybe u see mi outsdie u cal mi i will nv reply u and jus walk away now my mind my heart my feeling all like crying and very pain i m lost i dunno wat to do i feel tat my life is gone ............. everytime i feel sad i will cal someone to talk but nw i dun wan to say out coz i noe no one can help mi i feel like closeing my eye and nv wake up i feel very cold and the pain wo de xin si le ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... pain

2006-12-12T06:48:00.000-08:00

hai...... today my mood is very down the whole day dun feel like working haiiii i think abt my bday i very sad and angry my 21 bday is i will nv forget on tat onli 14 ppl come wa..... hw sad the say tat on tat day my mood already no mood liao and my mum and dad keep on saying my bday thing ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i very fen ar wat the helll why cant they stop all the crap i readli very very very sad and i can tell my bday MY 21 BDAY I NT HAPPY AT ALL AND I HATE TIS WORLD AND HATE PPL WHO LIE AND I HATE MYSELF ......................IN MY LIFE I WILL NV BE HAPPY i zhen de very sad hai......... i thin tis hurt to mi is very deep i need time to cool down JUS LEAVE MI ALONE...................

2006-12-11T03:50:00.000-08:00

hai........... ytd is my bday but i not happy at all hai......... at night my feeling is very down and sad dunno wat happen and i feel like crying i 21 le but still dunno wat is my taget hai.......... i very useless i m a ugly person no gal will like mi i think my fate is forever alone today the feeling still the same nth have change in my mind have a lot of why why i alone why i cant be happy why i always get hurt why why why my pain will nv endddddddddd

2006-12-10T12:00:00.000-08:00

haha today is my bday my feeling today is okok la hope everything will be ok and everyone will happy and enjoy my bbq haha..... today bday nth to say hai....... 21 le wo lao le still like kids haha..... mama wo yao ne ne

2006-12-09T06:11:00.000-08:00

today i tot i will very happy coz tml is my bday but today tio ps by ppl very sad liao go back hm oso same nth to do ppl say bday must happy but i nt happy at all i bbq nt much ppl coming hai..... sad dunno wat to do i try to be happy but in the end i cant i dunno wat is happy i onli noe wat is sad wat is hurt wat is pain coz in my world onli gt hurt and pain tml is my bday i dunno hw to act happy i dun wan let ppl see my sad face hai........ i think my whole life will sad and hurt all the way nv change nw my feeling is feel ilke crying but dunno cant cry out i wan to shout oso no one noe a sad person feeling i lost..........

2006-12-07T04:21:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhh.... today so tired whole do work no time to rest hai........ 2 more days my bday dunno wat to wish hai..... why always in the night my feeling is down hai........ myself oso dunno i think i need someone to care mi to love mi to talk to mi i tooooooooooooooooo lonely le going to kill ppl liao my life is toooooooooooo bring le WAT CAN I DO HA if one day i die le who will cry for mi hmmmmmmmmmmmm i think no one will cry hope die faster coz i m a bad person no feeling i m a cold blood person who always like to hurt ppl HAHA......... i now 100% mad liao HA HA HA

I M GONE

gone

2006-12-05T04:49:00.000-08:00

hai...... today my feeling still the same nth have change in a lonely way wat u do wat u see all is hei and bai no colour in the lonely way i already no feeling le.......... i think and think still cant think a way out in my mind i think i m liveing in my own world from the past till nw i have change alot but the onli thing nv change is my very kind heart still very kind but when my mind think abt something abt love i feel very angry and hate why tis world is full on LIE....... and i try to love someone but i cant dunno why i think is scare get hurt or dun dare to say out everday see the day past in the end still dunno wat m i doing wat is my taget
but if i can have a gf do my life will still the same?
but i noe will nv happen coz i dun dare to say and acc hai........ so fast going to 21 le still dunno here dunno there everything dunno why i cant find the ans or i scare the ans will hurt mi in my life i nv happy b4 even my bday...............

still the same

2006-12-03T05:04:00.000-08:00

hai ........... still the same still alone sometime feeling like crying coz i too lonely le no one to talk and dunno wat to do i dun feel like going out and keep thinking hw long i can stand the pain and wat can i do the cure the pain today go cwp wif my friend i feel very ex and see ppl gt gf i feel like i m a onli in the lonely world ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh life is sux love is pain i very hate myself why cant put down the hate in my heart why why i m always the one who feel lonely always i can cure ppl pain but i onli cant myself i dunno tis pain will hurt me till when i try to cure myself but always cant do it ahhhhhhhhhh sad dunno wat to do i dunno who i m i m always lost..........................................

I m not myself anymore

2006-11-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

hai...... time past very fast when tat day she leave mi in my world have no kind no light and no feeling all have die and i change to a very bad and no feeling person in love i noe i always lost but is ok when i alone i will always think wat i wan to do wat can i do my feeling always is very sad but i nv tell anyone i jus keep in my heart coz i noe if i say out i will lost her if she noe i try to dun think too much in my life i dun no who i m nw i very lonely i need someone to care someone can be there for mi hai..... my birthday is coming but i not happy at all i zhen de dunno i nw is the past of mi or someone who no feeling so i need time to cool down and think so i will nt ans any cal if wan to find mi jus sms mi ba i dunno hw long i can stand the pain.........

How can i do

2006-07-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

Hai..... i still the same everyday do nth but when i alone i will have the feeling like crying
but i dunno why i feel very hurt and pain in my heart everyday gt the same feeling
till one day my mind keep on thinking of her all abt HER
all the past keep on come out on my mind i dunno why tis few day my mood is very down i always try to make myself happy and dun think too much but i cant i feel very sad but i cant say out
coz i still gt my bao bei nu er and blur a..... to take care make sure they r ok for mi i m ok coz make everyday is my wish i down nvm i jus dun wan to see my friends sad and down
ahhhhhh....... now i feel abit better say out everything i feel ok le tat all i will stop here

My Feeling

2006-06-08T06:36:00.000-07:00

hai..... i do to keep inside my heart and dun let ppl noe hw i feel infont my friends
i act very happy and like nth happen but i noe i m liein myself
hai....... everytime at night my feeling will feel very sad and dunno why feel like crying
i hate myself why cant face the true why must lie myself hai...... i am lost
i dunno wat to do hai..... in tis world no one can noe hw a person feel a person need hai........
L O V E hurt mi alot alot..........

Story Of KaYaShI

2005-11-06T05:59:00.000-08:00

KaYaShI is a person who like to make joke and friendly

but sometime he will feel sad coz he cant forgive himself

he feel it tis world is full of lie full of hurt from a kind hearted to cold hearted

make him dun trust anyone sadness will nv end.......

KaKyShI is lost coz he oso dunno wat happen to himself

no one will understand a ugly person feel why ugly person

always get hurt love a person got wrong ma

why must hurt mi so bad i m ugly but i have a kind heart why why why...........